Current mood:	crappy
Current music:	Ramones - Pet Sematary

Jerry Spring fascinates me. I really would like to go to one of his shows and just sit in the audience. I don't care if its fake or not, I don't care if its all staged or not. I still want tickets to his show. I believe it's taped in Chicago so, hmm. Chicago, I really do hope I do to college there. Small-town life is really boring me, I need sometihng to new. I want new people to meet.

Chester seems so worn out. I need a new one, but I dont know if I can give Chester up and if i do, who will get him? It has to be someone with a love for music and has at least 1000 mp3s.

Ah yes, my emo ranting..let it begin.
I hate this family and how ghetto it is. Everyone seems to be happy with it though but me. Am I the only one in my family that wants better then this life? I'm sick and tired of coming home to this house, this life. My mom is always going on about how she is trying to get me out of here and find another place to live and what not. But she's been saying this for 17 years and nothing has happened and I really dont think anything will. I'll be graduating and still be living in this house until I finally go away to college. I highly doubt my car will ever get fixed as well. It's been 2 months now? and nothing has changed. But my mom still goes on about how she is trying and is gonna get my car fixed soon. When is soon? I don't see how she is trying to change anything..all she does is watch television. It's not like I can go and find myself someplace to live. I can't even get a job because I have no car and i'm defiantly not gonna walk to work or rely on other people for rides. I feel like i'm trapped in some prison and I can't get out.

I want cds. I wish history of Violence came out here but Cry Wolf is here and I want to go see that. I need some kind of horror movie in my life at the moment.